Having an abortion as pregnancy causes many psychological disturbances to her

Q: I am a married woman. After my sixth month of pregnancy, some unfortunate things started happening to me. I was unable to live normally, I feared everything and I stayed in bed most of the time. All of these symptoms would vanish once I deliver the baby, as there is no organic disease, all praise be to Allah. When some of my friends learned about my condition, they advised me to try to miscarry through lifting heavy objects or jumping from high places. Indeed, I followed their advice and I lost the baby during my fifth month of pregnancy. After that, all my fears were gone and I was psychologically relieved. Now I feel that I have killed that baby and I fear Allah. I regret the sin that I have committed and I cry a lot. Even now, 12 years later, I still cry and regret what I did. Please guide me:- Did I commit a sin? Note that I only did it because of the fears and bad feelings that I had. What should I do so that Allah will forgive me?- Should I make any Kaffarah (expiation) for my sin? (Part No. 21; Page No. 454) Please answer me so that I may regain my peace of mind, as I fear the Punishment of Allah and hope for His Forgiveness. May Allah reward you!

A: What you have done in aborting the fetus after the soul is breathed into it is considered an assault on a safeguarded human being. You have to perform Tawbah (repentance to Allah) and you should pay the Diyah (blood money) of the fetus if the heirs claim it.May Allah grant us success. May peace and blessings be upon our Prophet Muhammad, his family, and Companions.